So That I Remember

So I met this guy a week ago. Toys R Us. Chatted, he asked for my PSN (PS3 network name) and we've been messaging back and forth. Last Thursday I gave him my phone number and MSN to make talking easier (yes, overeagerness) but I was neither added nor called. Over the past 3 days, it's been a back and forth of "let's meet this day...oops gotta cancel" or the day goes by without anyone mentioning anything. I was obsessing over why this guy hasn't called. I know, clearly, he's not that into me, but I couldn't stop questioning for some reason.

Until, that is, I told my situation to Lirad, and he said the magic phrase that has given me complete clarity.

"Why be upset about it? He doesn't owe you anything, you don't owe him anything. You just talked in Toys R Us for a couple hours, so what?"

Fuck, so true, so enlightening. It all became clear at that moment! Why am I upset? Why should I even care so much? Geez, I don't even remember what he looks like! Given my history of horribly erroneous first meeting judgment, he probably looks hideous in retrospect.

I feel so much more free now, without all the questioning and doubt weighing on my mind. There's not even any bitterness. It's so true, he doesn't owe me anything, why would I expect anything? Damn...that's great. New way of thinking, I love it.

**UPDATE**

Through some random facebook/google stalking, I found out that he has a girlfriend!! Lololol it all makes sense, what an asshole! And yeah, totally not hot.