So That I Remember

All 3 interviews are over now, and so far, I've gotten the rejection call from Scotia (apparently because I wasn't enthusiastic enough, though my technicals are very strong!). Haha, to be expected. I had absolutely no rapport with the interviewers since they were stone cold bitches. As well, I've never had a good experience with Scotia. Ever since first year when I interviewed with a derivatives trader who pretty much mocked me in the interview, Scotia/me interactions have been on a shitty downhill mudslide. I've never had a bank account with them, and at this rate, I urge you to cease all business with them too. Assholes. I hope they burn at the stake!

The notice for the other two (Royal & C, I'm sure you know which banks those are) will come early next week, and final rounds are late next week.

I can't say for sure if I'll get the 2nd round call. All I know is that the rejection call is absolutely devastating - even from Scotia (who I hate!) - because you always have that hope in the tiniest cavern of your heart, the thought that maybe there's still a chance because everybody else wasn't that impressive either.

Sigh...I honestly don't know what I'll do if I get rejected for these jobs. It's akin to Mihan's thoughts on med school applications. Rejection from this leaves me in limbo, which I'd probably wallow in for quite a long time. When I finally hit rock bottom, I'll have to lower my standards and apply to ... regular jobs. I think I'd honestly be scarred for life.

I'm scared to even think about it. My entire university career, all my hopes and dreams, will all be determined within the next week. Fuck, that's a lot of pressure. That's why I'm not even going to take the chance. Even though I haven't been told of their decision, I'm going to start studying. If I get the 2nd round, I'll be well prepared for technical questions. Also doesn't hurt to prep excessively for behavioural either. Yeah, I should think of some more scenarios where I've demonstrated my character.

All right, time to get to it! Oh yeah, I'm going to Montreal this weekend too, should be fun, but I wish I could be studying...haha, wow that's sad.